Lets talk pregnancy, more importantly the end. As the end draws closer and closer, I start thinking about how excited I am to NOT be pregnant. I am definitely not one of those women who love pregnancy. I spent 22 weeks throwing up with Mason even on medicine. I spent 16 weeks with constant nausea on this pregnancy. Everything that could go wrong at the end of my pregnancy did with Mason. Swellings, high blood pressure, bleeding, emergency c-section, more high blood pressure post baby. This pregnancy, so far, no swelling or not too bad, but the heartburn is awful. Try reading a story to your toddler with constant throw burning pain and the desire the throw up said throw burn. We are having another c-section, which I am okay with, but not looking forward to my toddler thinking I hate him.
I am looking forward to my body going back to normal. I cannot wait in fact to be able to bend over at the waist again. I want to play with Mason and him to feel like Mommy is fun again. I miss those times, especially on days with nice weather and I know it would be possible minus the 9 month belly I am sporting. I want to wear normal clothes again, I want to all around feel normal.
Will I miss the kicking and movement of my baby girl? Nah! Keeping it real. I hear some women say after they have their first that they miss those moments, but after Mason I didn’t and knowing Addie is my last baby I can say I will most likely not miss the kicks to my ribs or the fact that I cannot breath a deep breath without her fighting back and the crazy feeling when she bounces off my bladder. Nope won’t miss that either. Why won’t I miss it? I will have the real deal in my arms.
Reality is…pregnancy is a means to an ends. I love kids would have a ton of them if it didn’t mean I had to be pregnant. Reality…pregnancy’s are not always fun. Reality…pregnancy is rough on your body. Reality…some people just don’t LOVE it. You know what, that is OKAY!
I am dying to meet Miss Addison. I want to know if she will look like her brother, her daddy, me or a combination. Will she have blonde hair like her brother and Daddy or dark hair like me. Blue eyes are a definite. Daddy and Mommy both have blue eyes. Will she be longer…heavier than brother. I am thinking yes. Why? I have gained almost the same amount of weight at this point with Mason, but with Mason I was retaining a lot of fluid.
I cannot wait for Mason to meet his sister. I cannot wait to see how he is with her. He loves babies. In stores, if he hears one cry, he gets concerned and I have to tell him it is okay that baby’s Mommy will take care of her. He loves to help out already, so I have a feeling he will be a big helper. Getting blankets, diapers, pacifiers, or whatever sister needs. I have an older brother and I just know it will give new prospective to that relationship.
I am looking forward to watching my husband fall in love with another baby. He is the best Daddy, Mason and I could ever ask for and I know Addison will have him wrapped. Goodness, Mason has him wrapped for the most part. He says he doesn’t know what to do with a girl. Raise with all brothers and has only experience Mason first hand. I know he will be great though. He will love and protect her from everything and everyone. He was protective of Mason in his first weeks, more so than me as a first time mom. I am hoping he doesn’t baby her too much though. I wouldn’t know what to do with a girly girl.
We cannot wait to meet sweet Addie, but if she wants to cook just a little longer that would be great. I got some work items I need to finish up.
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